Sleep Deprived, Even at High School
August 18, 2012
The experiment began in January. It has epically failed. I tried to become a diurnal, but have come up short…by countless hours and dark circles surrounding my bloodshot eyes. Yes, I am waking up earlier on school days. Yes, I am getting to work on time. Yes, I am getting more done in the morning. But this doesn’t negate my infinite power burst just after 4 in the afternoon, causing me to stay working at school until seven.
I am now teaching at a high school. I have to learn a new curriculum. New staff. New demographic. But I still desperately fight going to sleep at a decent time. Why are others able to function on so much less sleep than I am? Why can others go to events on the weekends and not feel as if they are being ripped off of time they could spend sleeping in, laying on the couch, catching up on “Trueblood,” “The Daily Show,” and “White Collar”? How do people maintain a social life AND get enough sleep?
I am mentally, emotionally, intellectually, and physically exhausted from my first two weeks teaching at high school, and yet, I feel compelled to write this blog rather than go to sleep. I’ve had two glasses of wine and two Clonozopams, and I am still motivated to stay up past midnight. In my current mindset, I am thinking, “suck it diurnals.” I plan on sleeping until at least 2 pm, and watching TV all day. Damn, aren’t I the intellectual?